I want a guy … who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. someone who would think i was beautiful if i dressed so trashy it was classy. someone who would sing to me at random moments. who would let me sleep on their chest. someone who is more goofy than romantic but knows the right things to say and do at the right times. a boy who would beat the shit out of someone if they called me fat. i want someone who would call me 3 times a day. he would apologize for calling too much and no matter how many times i tell him its okay, he still does it and i dont get sick of it. he would throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then dog pile on me and kiss me a millon times we would bet kisses on who could beat who on a playstations game thats a millon years old. and someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh. he would surprise me with 25 cent rings and we would have contest of how far we could spit our gum. he would take me to the park and put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. someone who would kiss my neck just to have a reason to tell me how much he likes my new perfume and at night we would dance in our pajamas and we’d always take pictures in photo booths..we’d play tag on the beach. he would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it. we would sit on the kitchen floor and eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.. and we’d make out in the pouring rain…

teenage love.

What is teenage love?

It's staying up late for eachother and barely staying awake in class the next day.

It's passing eachother between classes and stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings.

It's wandering around, hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable.

It's his arms around your shoulders, and your head in his arms.

It's walking around at night for no reason at all;

it's her head on his chest.

It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll end up having a broken heart.

It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation.

sometimes oh sometimes

sometimes i just don't think you get the little things i do.

when i text you, it's cause i miss you and i want to talk.

when i say i love you, i mean i love you. i mean it unconditionally. no matter what

when i hug you, it's cause i want to feel loved.

when i call you, it's cause i miss you voice, not cause i wanna talk.

when i grab your hand, grab back. it makes me feel like yours.

when you hold me and tell me you'll never ever let go, i wish you wouldn't

when you ignore me, it makes me feel like i don't matter.

when you text me, it makes me feel special.

when you told me you loved me, i believed you.

when you say it once, usually you say it again.

as many times as i blink i'll think of you

Everything is the way it should be now. everything went back to normal between us, and i'm so thankful for that. i was scared for a week there. i really thought you were going to break up with me, and i had no idea why. I've never done anything to make you break up with me. I mean ya, sometimes i get frustrated with you, but thats what relationships are always about. It wouldn't be REAL if we didn't fight, or get frustrated with each other every once and awhile. My love for you isn't conditional, its unconditional. I'll always love you no matter how stupid you act sometimes, or how mean you can be at times. For awhile there i thought i was losing you. I thought i was losing my best friend too. It just got really weird, and i couldn't deal with it. But now you're back and i love it. i love you. It sucks that we can't see each other more often than we do, but as you always say, being apart makes us love each other that much more; and it's soo true. When i don't see you for 4 or 5 days, the days i do see you are just that much better. For some reason though, people just don't understand us. People don't understand how we treat each other, how we are affectionate towards each other, just how we are together. I don't see how people can't get it, i mean it's pretty darn obvious to me. We're a tag team. Without each other we'd be lost. And that's pretty much how i see it. When we were talking about our friends that were couples last night, it made me realize that you really are in it for the long haul. Maybe it's mean to be, just you and me? I'm not really sure, but lately i've been feeling like it's leaning towards that way. Although you may not come out and say it all the time i do know that you love me, and i see it more and more every time we see each other. Everything's just perfect right now, and i really don't want it to change any time soon.

it's not fair

your little spurts of anger towards me are just as annoying as my little spaz attacks sometimes. like you think when i get upset about something, that it's the end of the friggen world. and then you bottle up all this stupid emotion, and then once it's going to explode, you find me, and let it all out. it's not unnecessary and unfair. i treat you like gold. i love and respect you no matter what you do or say to me, and sometimes i just don't understand why. i don't understand why i put up with you sometimes. i don't deserve to be yelled at, and told i'm annoying, and all this other crap. do i do that to you? NO. I mean yes, we all have things about each other that we dislike, but we deal with those things and we tell the person and we try and move on from there. i'm sorry that i've been annoying and rather clingy lately. i'm trying my best to stay positive, but it's hard to when the world around you just feels so against you. When you said you wanted a break, i know you don't. i know that's just what's coming off your breath at that moment in time. You say things you don't mean when your angry and it pisses me off. Im sorry that iv'e been clingy and annoying, i really am, and i wont be like that anymore. I love you more than anything in this entire world, and if i lost you, i don't know what i would do. Please, just Please don't do this to me again. Please dont.

so in love

when did we fall in love so hard, and so fast? last time i checked we were two innocent teenagers, and now we're in love. being in love with you is the greatest feeling in the world. i may not see you everyday, or talking to you everyday, but it makes our love stronger, and that's why were so in love. its hard being apart from you everyday. the entire summer i saw you like everyday, and now i barely ever see you and it sucks. i miss spending time with you. i miss you holding me forever and ever and ever and ever. i miss our chats about absolutely nothing. i miss our laughs. it's hard being a grown up and being in love. i've gotta prioritize my life and it's hard. sometimes i would just rather be with you than do homework. sometimes i feel like you'd rather be doing other things than being with me, but whatever that just comes in time. todays our five months, and i know that's not long, but its longer than anything i've ever been in before. the past 5 months have been the most amazing months of my life. i just hope we have many many more months together in love.

summa 09 sure was finee

summer 09 is done and gone. i'm going to miss it not gonna lie. summer o9 was the best 4 months of my life. the things i did, the adventure's i went on, the lessons i learned are all in the past now. Over the course of the summer my relationship with david got nothing but better, stronger, more trustworthy, more passionate, more mature, and just better in general. like you said, we're like pb and j just more badass. our love for eachother is mutual and i love that. i love how you talk about being together still next summer. i love how at the beggining of the summer you thought we'd be done by now, and now you can't get enough of me. i come visit you after school and you dont want me to leaveee. being apart from you everyday is hard, but it's good for us. we've hungout everyday since the beginning of the summer and now it's time for a a couple days apart and that's good. it'll make our relationship stronger.
so basically summer 09 was bomb. i wish it was still summer. end of story.